Lately I have noticed that I still think that I am 24 years old. I'm a few years older than that now with two kids and a husband. I have been married through most of my twenties and just have hit a figurative brick wall.

I don't know why I still think I'm 24, I don't know if it has to do with that's when I had my first child or what. I'm trying to think of myself as a woman in her late twenties and trying to change the way that I look.

After I gained all of the weight I couldn't bring myself to buy the Misses sizes because they looked like things my grandma would wear and I was way to young for that. So I tried to stay in Juniors as long as I could. I didn't go crazy to the point of embarrassment or anything but I now realize that not only have I grown up but now my clothes need to match it too.

I'm not all for spending loads of money on clothes because I wear them into the ground. Like today I found out that all of my jeans I can no longer wear in public because they are all ripped in the same place (down the back pocket right to the underwear). Luckily I found that out before I went out or else I would have felt so stupid.

When "The Hubby" had to go to LA a week or so ago he needed new clothes and I figured I should get a shirt and a pair of jeans too. I stayed away from the Junior section and looked through the Misses and I found jeans that don't make me look old and still have the bootcut. Now that I know I need jeans I know where I can go to buy them and what kind to buy. Tops are a whole other story.

I'm not into wearing stuff that shows anything off because there's nothing to show off anymore besides stretch marks and saggy breasts from breast feeding two kids. So it's hard for me because I know the style I like but just not willing to shovel out the money for it.

I don't know how many of you ever feel like this but when I remember how old I am I actually have to calculate it because I just can't believe that much time has gone by. I also have noticed that my memory skills aren't much better either. Man I feel sometimes like I'm getting older than I really am.

If any of you feel this way, let me know so I don't feel so alone.