I have touched on the subject of needing family around. It's true, we have decided that we are moving back to the mid-west but just don't know when. Parenting can be very frustrating to me. I wished it wasn't but life in general can be too.

"The Hubby" and I haven't had a night away for just us in about a year and a half and it just seems that right after we would came back from a night away things were very nice between the four of us. No matter what anyone else thinks or says, you have to make quality time for just you and your significant other. I didn't realize until today just how frustrating it is.

We have made a lot of changes in our family in the last month and a half and just everything together has come down to I just need a break. I can't wait to move back to Michigan because that's where our family and friends are and we will be doing so much better because we will be able to leave the kids once every couple of months. Plus most of our family is between Michigan and Ohio that have kids. We have family all over but this is where most of the kids are.

I realized that we needed to move home late last year and then it hit me again hard on January 31, 2007, because that was my due date if I hadn't miscarried back in 2006. There was just so much going on and I just couldn't deal with it. 

I'm still figuring out how to deal with things as a parent and wife. I think that's something I will always be learning about.