This past Monday "N" started going to his new school.  So far so good, he seems to like it and looks forward to going everyday.  I'm having a hard time because I wake up early in the morning, get both the kids fed, dressed and teeth brushes before I take them to drop "N" off at school.  The school is about 25 minutes away and so I run him there, race home to drop "O" off and race up to the gym for my CORE class.  Since I'm already losing weight I figured I might as well try to get my body into as much shape as I can before my surgery as I can.

I have been doing a lot of thinking and have thought about my whole situation.  If I had not met "The Hubby" when I did and not changed my diet almost 8 years ago, I would be staring cancer in the face and going through chemo after the surgery.  I honestly think that diet also had a factor in this.  After I met with the genetic counselor, she informed me that I probably have had the polyps since my late teens/early 20's, I met and married "The Hubby" when I was 21 and here I am almost eight years late and all I have are the pre cancer cells.  I finally told "The Hubby" yesterday about the way I've been feeling about this and that I do thank him and he tops it off by saying, "You're healthier than me."  I remember back when we first met and how badly I ate and he was eating much better than me.  Now I really watch what the family eats and he snacks a little more than I do but you what?  He can because he doesn't do it all the time and he works very hard 24/7 with work, family and my crap.

I know that the pains I have been having are just from stress because all of my blood tests and body scans have all come back normal and so from now on I just have to have an Upper GI scope about once a year and the same with my thyroids.  No big deal and the best part is, I don't have to live with an external bag for the rest of my life so by this time next year I'll feel comfortable to wear a bathing suit.

It's just going to be so crazy next week, starting on Wednesday we have to meet our financial adviser that we haven't seen since we started with her about two or so months ago, on "O's" birthday I get to spend all day at Mayo doing all my paper work and final exams and fun stuff, I meet with the surgeon one more time on Friday, Monday I meet with their OB/GYN for my tubal ligation and Tuesday's the surgery and I'll be there until that Saturday.  Luckily this happens before my birthday so I can still go to the Tigers vs. D-back baseball game.  They're here on birthday, Happy Birthday to me!!!

I have been under so much stress that I have been really trying not to yell at the kids but it's so hard when they know what they are supposed to do and yet don't do it.  I know that there is no excuse for that and I really am working, I just think it's so stupid that the kids know what they are supposed to do yet they don't do it and we have also tried to explain to them what's going on with me, which I know they don't understand but still it's very frustrating dealing with them right now.  "O" is just the biggest butt head ever.  I have to take her out with me when I have errands to run, I get home and shower around 10am and we leave around 10:30, as soon as we get in the car she starts crying, pitching fits, taking sock and shoes off.  Her tantrums aren't fun either.

I have been doing some clothes shopping for myself these past few weeks and I have now found three stores that I totally love and they are Levi's, Dockers and New York and Company.  I can wear anywhere from a size 6-8 in their bottoms.   How cool is that?  The Levi's I own I have to exchange because I've lost so much weight that the pants just fall right off my butt.  Since April 2 I am now down to 130 pounds and would like to be about 127-129 lbs when my surgery happens. 

I'm sitting here looking at my Outlook calendar and it's just crazy up until the surgery.  Once that happens then I'll not be doing a whole lot for a little while.  I guess I can call that my mini-vacation.