Things are slowly calming down.  "The Hubby's" in LA until tomorrow night and today the kids are in daycare so I cleaned a decent amount of the house and now I am taking a little break before I go to my doctor appointment.  Last night I felt so bad for the kids because they aren't used to dad leaving considering the last time he left was back in December 07.  As we were pulling out of the parking garage "N" kept saying I miss my daddy.  I kept telling him that he'll talk to him in the morning and that this is a very short trip.  So by the time we got home I gave both kids a bath they went to bed and I just vegged on the couch them brushed the cat.

Last week "The Man" said that we had to get rid of her because he was allergic to her.  She does have a medium coat and so it does bother him a I feel bad because I got mad at him since we just spent around $200 on this little stray cat getting her all fixed up and normal and now I have to get rid of her.  I told him that while he was gone I would totally clean the house and wash it down as best as I can.  I still can't give her a bath for a while since her stitches aren't dissolved yet from her being spayed.  The kids were pretty upset too when they found out what was going on and after "N's" foot doctor appointment "The Man" said that we can keep her since he's been out voted.

It was funny because Tatum (the cat) decided that she wanted to watch "O" get a bath, so she sat on the edge of the tub and watched.  Tatum has such an awesome personality.  She is so much nicer now and loves being brushed.  I think I'm going to stop for a couple of days since the brush I use takes off the under fur and it has taken off a lot. 

I have a few more appointments before my Ileostomy surgery.  It's still hard knowing that I'm not going to be a normal person again but at least I know that I will be able to live a full and long life with my family.  I know that I'll be a better parent too once all this stuff is done because I won't be stressing as much.  With everything going on I have also enrolled "N" into a montessori school that he starts next week.  He's getting so excited and I am too because it's a fully private school and I think that it will be a good way for him to learn.  It'll be a little harder for me to get things done since "O" will be staying home with me but that's ok because we'll have good quality mom/daughter time.

With the surgery coming up it's been hard to me to not be on the edge but at least I know that we can depend on my "MIL" to help us.  She's been awesome enough to tell us that she is coming out to help take care of the kids while I have the surgery.  That's great because I just really want my kids here with me.  Plus "N" said that he doesn't want to miss any of his school unless he's sick and even then he doesn't want to miss it.  He's so looking forward to it.  I feel bad because up until now we have had the freedom to travel and never took full advantage of it and with this school I have to pay whether he goes or not.  Plus with this school he will also be going to kindergarten there as well.

The kids have made it well known that they no longer wish to really go out anymore.  It's both good and bad, when I get stir crazy and want to leave they ("N") doesn't want to.  He was really bad this past weekend but I think a lot had to do with "The Hubby" leaving a he was just throwing a very long temper tantrum to stop him from leaving.  Obviously "The Hubby" still had to go but I think he was kind of happy to leave since he's able to spend a few days away from the family.  He needs to do that and I try to get him to as well.  I've been trying to get him to do things without the family, driving range or whatever.  We did go to the driving range last Tuesday and I sucked really badly at it.  It's been about six or seven years since a hit a golf ball and I used to go out a few times a week by myself during the day just to hit golf balls.  I was getting kind of good and then I stopped because it was getting pricey.  Now I'm lucky if I can even hit 5 balls out of the bucket.  I gave "The Man" the rest of my balls and he left them because he was getting tired.

I hurt so bad for about four days afterwards.  Now he sees that I do need a few lessons because I suck so badly.  I gave him a pretty good laugh while NOT hitting the balls.  If this were to have happened a few years ago I would have been so mad that I would have made him leave with me.  I tried hitting balls for a good 45 minutes but it just really wasn't my day.  After a little bit I would just stand behind him and just watch him hit those balls with ease.  He used to work on a golf course where we grew up, actually the golf course he worked on was right behind my uncle's house.  The golf course is now a housing community but still yet another time where we could have met.

I do have a full body CT scan scheduled for Wednesday so that means I'll be spending all day Wednesday at Mayo Clinic with other appointments.  I guess I can't really complain because I am getting excellent attention and service.  They really are very nice and thorough with everything they are doing for me, I couldn't ask for a better group of people.  With what I have, they are treating me as though I have cancer for the tests but once everything comes back and I have the surgery I won't have to have the treatments luckily. 

Protect yourself and have a colonoscopy done, it's one of the a few good things you need to do to live a full and happy life.  If you know that there is a family history of colorectal cancer then do the right thing, get off your butt and get it looked at.  I really didn't mind going through it because it gave me a peace of mind and even though it's not the outcome I wanted to hear, it's the best outcome I could have asked for.  I know now that I will no longer have a chance of having colon cancer since those cells are going to be taken out.  Go have it done, it will be the best day of sleep you'll ever have!!!  Schedule one today!