So the night after Thanksgiving is my 10 year high school reunion. I won't be going which I'm a little bummed because I haven't seen most of the the people since the night I graduated and I really missed those fun times. That was one of the best years I had in at that time because just before I started my senior year of high school my mom died. I switched high schools and I knew most of the people at the new school since I was 5 years old and it was nice because most of my friends knew my mom and I could just have a little pitty party every now and then with them.

It was a good year because it helped me not deal with the stress and turmoil in my home life. I really wanted to reconnect with them because they meant the world to me and I don't think I ever told them that. You know how you are when you're young like that, selfish among other things.

Like I said I'm still bummed I'm not going but then it's ok because my MIL is coming out Thanksgiving day and spending the weekend here. The kids are SOOOOOO looking forward to it. I have sent emails to my friends letting them know but no one really seems to either care or notice. It's a hard feeling because I already feel isolated and that just makes me feel worse. A lot of crap went on with me after I graduated and wasn't able to keep in touch and now that I have been trying they don't care and it's just a sucky feeling.

I guess today is my pitty party day just for me. I don't have many of those so I think I'm entitled to one once in  a while. So now it's really late and I need to get to bed. Sorry about the pitty party but it's just one of those nights and I found out that a few more of my friends are getting divorced and that I find out by bulletins and not by email or by phone.