It's been a really off week for me. I just could not focus and just was in a bad mood and a little bit depressed. I took it out on the family and I feel so horrible because "N" thinks he has to walk on eggshells. "O" is just as obnoxious as ever.

Over the weekend "The Hubby" and I joined a gym that has racquetball. It was the first time I ever played and boy did I suck! I was afraid of being hit by the ball. How dumb is that? We ended up playing for 1 1/2 hours (we had the court for two hours but I just couldn't play anymore). I felt fine and then this Sunday I was pretty darn sore.

If you're looking to burn some major calories and a great workout, go try racquetball. At the gym we joined they actually have a league (I will join it after I get better). I just wish that this gym and another one I like could just merge into one because I really want to focus on doing yoga and the gym in Surprise, AZ had something like six hours a day of yoga BUT they don't have a racquetball court. That's all they have to add and I would totally join.

Anyway. I've been a bad mom, frustrated, unsure and insecure. I'm bad because I have a have no patience right now with anyone. I'm frustrated because I need to figure things out. How can I save up money faster so we can get out of here? How can I be a better mom? I'm unsure because you just get that way after a while. You get stuck in a rut and you just can't get out. We haven't been able to get out of this rut in about a year and a half. I'm sure that it will not be as bad once we move back to Michigan.

My life really isn't that bad. I'm able to stay home with my kids. My kids and husband love me (kids don't have much respect but we're working on it), we have nice and safe cars. We are healthy (we could be healthier) and are pretty good off.

Do you ever notice that a lot of us are never happy with what we have? It's sad that we as a society are that way, no matter who you are.

Sorry about the rant.